The reason i cry

I told you I'm OK
I'm fine like yesterday
& I'm sure that you know
I'm lying to you like every day

But still you ask me why
there's a story in every tear I cry
U still ask me what's wrong
& why I've been sad 4so long

But when you said that to me
I just looked away
I'm sorry I can't tell you
It's better anyway

I know that you're mad
& I know I treat you bad
but sorry I really can\'t tell
please don't be sad

But you thought that with your feelings I play
& everyone I know ,I betray
So you left,& I watched you go away
So fast .. that you couldn't hear me say

Do you wanna know what's killing me?
Do you wanna know what hurts me the most?
Do you really wanna know?

Well, Simply It's my whole life
It's my family, it's you mum ,its you dad.
Its the empty house I live in
The lonely bed I cry on

Its you, its everybody
All the people who I called them Friends
& soon they became my worst enemies

Its the bad thoughts i have
Its me thinking of suicide

Its everything I hated about you
That turned to be my SELF

Its the hole I have inside my heart
Where blood was never found

I'm out of reasons, out of words
Do u get it now?
Do you know why I smile?
Because there's a million dark thoughts in my mind
& its better if i locked them deep inside
See?????
I'm fine.... I'm good...I'm OK