Worse Off

I didn't mean it,
Don't you get it,
I avoid you so,
You don't see me,
The way I am,
Every hit,
Shakes me to the bone,
So off you go,
Yet again,
Bad mouthing me,
Speaking ill,
Every bit,
Leaving me alone,
Making me low,
Letting the rain,
Fall all over me,
Against my will,
Your face all lit,
This situation,
All blown,
Out of this zone,
I'd take the pill,
But I don't want to leave,
I want to use my wit,
You say I bit,
Off more than I can chew,
These fields of thought all mown,
Reading everything you writ,
Left me needing a clue,
To what I had,
To do,
I'm hurt,
But I know you don't care,
Because we all know,
I'm worse for wear.