For ever in depression

I am always in depression
only one way to come out
but that one way
will never come

why does my heart
have to be like this
to the one thing
it may never have

why do i gotta
love a girl
that i will always love and want to be with
when she don't feel the same?

every day
every minute
every second
i think about her

every time i do it
hurts so much
i don't know
what to do

i don't deserve
to be in gods presents
so why cant i
just lay down and die

i am sure
everyone will be proud
if i was gone
and best part

is i wont be hurt again
who knows what ill experience
who knows what ill see
in the past life

who knows i might just live on
just be in pain
for the rest of My days