Addiction

When I wake up in the morning
Your face flashes in my mind
I'm so confused about you
My thoughts need to unwind

I feel like I have a strange addiction
I need your loving care
But when I look for you
You are never there

I can't take these mixed emotions
I need to relax
I need to time time off
Before my fragile heart cracks

It's so hard to be in love
With someone you would never get
You want to let go
But the flame for them is lit

Your falling everyday
And no one helps you out
Then you get kicked when your down
You want to scream and shout

You go into your room
And make yourself bleed
You wish one day you will stop
This deadly unwanted deed

17 times I've cut over him
And bleed onto my bed
Thats 17 times to many
Thats 17 signals misread

Every time I cut
It's cause your not in my life
I don't want to cut
But it's such a tempting knife

I don't know why I do it
I guess I have an obsession
But I'm sick of this now
I'm sick of all my depression

So now I'll put down the knife
And learn to walk away
I WILL get over my addiction
With every passing day