My suicide note

By the time you read this
i will already be dead
your expression reflects
all your sorrow and dread

it is the fault
of nobody but me
now the truth
is quite clear to see

the pain ive dealt with
and cause unto all
i could not handle
i was bound to fall

you must wonder
now to yourself
how could he do this
i thought he loved himslef

i realized that
love is a lie
and the only true act of love
for ones self is to die

so i put myslef out
of my misery
as to not subject myslef to
all this bichery

so now i leave
all my earthly goods
i will distribute them now
for the won\'ts and the woulds

to brett i leave
my xbox console
hopefully it will help you
to again be whole

to richard S i leave my
computer
you should have fun
with the music shooter

my bass guitar i leave to
a friend
mary you have been there
up until the very end

my car i leave
bright and true
heather noel traudt
i will always love you

as well as my car
goes all else i had
to the one i will always love
and whom i always made feel bad

and last and most
certanly the very least
to God i leave my life
i am nothing but a beast...