Please Understand

Please understand,
I'm still me
i still love you
i still need you

i need to get this out.
i need you to listen.
but i don't want you
to judge me.

i need you to keep this
between us.
i need to know i can trust you.

you need to understand
I'm halfway trying to be like you.
i want to be able to relate.
i want this to be something we share.

but you need to know
it comforts me.
the pain,
the bleeding
it makes me feel like i have something in common with the world.

being so different

we are all in pain.
i share it with them
they share it with me.
this can be something we all share.

so please, please understand.
that this isn't me merely
following the crowd.

this is me, being me.
don't be mad.
i need you now more than ever.

please be here,
and wait it out
with me.

04/22/05