I DoNt UnDeRsTaNd

I don't know what happened today
and ill never know how things got this way

walking down the road of life
keeping promises to never use a knife

think of each tear rolling down my cheek
Ive been like this all week

nothing is like it used to be
i wish that everyone else could see

i want them to know that I'm not okay
and that i struggle through each day

each day i dream that i found the guy
that wont make me say good-bye

the one that makes me feel alright
and that i think about at night

each day i wish that i find the friend
that can help me when i need to mend

the one who knows whats wrong before they ask
and sees the face behind my mask

everyday ill keep dreaming
and inside i will always be screaming

only because i dont understand
why nothing worked as planned

*venting.... * idk whats going on with my life anymore