Why Did I Lie? (Reposted)

Hey... I wrote this after me and my boyfriend broke up...

I told him i didn't love him but that was a lie. I told him i didn't care and i didn't need him by my side. I said alot of things just to push him away, and now that he is gone, i wish he would have stayed. Why did i lie, i never meant to, i should have told him i loved him, i should have told him the truth. Well I'll just say this, i will love him forever until i ceast to exist.

*Could you please vote and/or comment, it would really mean alot to me.*