Big black whole

I ran In the river
my legs collapse from the cold
my body and soul are dead
for in me i have a big black whole

so now i use the river, as my only witness to the life i led
so now i should end the pain and suffering, and the confusion in my head

for no longer i can take this pain, and my arms become to weak
i should end it all tonight
without even having to speak

you may find it a cowerdless act, you may find it selfish and cruel.
but making someone live this way
well only you are being the fool!

so now i shall go, without a word
you shouldn't miss me because now i might actually be happy
and know that it WAS your fault that my body had this big black whole