I am not the one!

I am alone
I am loud
I am scared
I am crazy
I am tortured
I am beautiful
I am funny
I am worthless
I am happy
I am depressed
I am confused
I am me, someday you will understand me until then leave me the f#$k alone.
I tried so hard to impress you, but nothing, I did was good enough
I did my best to make you love me, but couldn't do anything to make her memory disappear
I may be a lot but Im not the one you want.