My Inner fears

Do you know how hard it is?
To keep it all inside
to let the lies tear up my head
in no-one to confide

Do you know how hard it is?
To keep smiling every day
To feel the pain in my heart
and to always miss the way

Do you know how hard it is?
To keep walking on the path
when all i see is mountains
and complicated maths

Do you know how hard it is?
To lie awake at night
and litsten to the lies
as my heart begins to fight

Do you know how hard it is?
To look at myself
To see the eyes fulll of tears
and my life upon the shelf

Do you know how hard it is?
To write these words
without getting scared?