Numb

I feel nothing...
Not the ruffle of clothes as I walk...
Not the closing of my eyes as I blink...
I just continue to stare at the world and think silent thoughts to myself...
What I see damages my mind.
It corrodes what I have always thought of the world, adding grime to the already cold essence of my rotting self.
No one cares...
No one wants to see...
What is the way for me, then...?
How can you show a blind person how to see color?
You cannot...
It will be just as impossible for that as it will be for me to teach a common person...they already have their stubborn mindset in place...

So I do not feel anything as I walk this chaotic world...
I taste nothing when I put food into my mouth...
...I do not even grow hungry...
But when I do, I even doubt that I will get up to eat.
I do not feel anything...completely numb to what I am seeing and experiencing...
So tell me how a paralyzed person can ever feel in their legs again?
Tell me how a broken heart and soul and mind can be put back together like new...

I thought that falling asleep last night would help...but I woke up feeling the same...

How long will this last?
How long will I be numb before I am able to continue on my forsaken road of destiny...