My Heart I Must Spare

I love her I think...
But have I ever blinked?

Love is as it was...
But is it simply a buzz?

An example of this
May be our type of kiss...

Did I truly love her before?
At the time I loved her more.

Did I truly love her after?
A cieling and floor without a rafter.

Are those my true feelings?
My mind is always reeling...

My thoughts just confuse...
Is this just self-abuse?

I don't know, I don't care,
My heart I must spare...