No Worth

I'm finally leaving
I have no purpose on this earth
Living all these years
And I still have no worth

My best friend hates her self
Which I don't understand
I cry every time I look at her wrist above her left hand
I wish I could make it better
I wish I could make all the pain go away
I don't want to have to wake up
And find out shes killed her self this way
And then again its ALL MY fault
I must not be doing my job as a friend
I'd lay down my life just to see one more true smile from her again

My Mother hates me I know it's true
She'd beat my brother for things he didn't do
Chopped off all my hair cause she thought she herd me talk back
And if I dared even be upset I'd be smacked
Locked my sister and I in rooms for days
But I was younger you see
And it broke my sisters heart to tell me why Mommy was doing this to me
Lies after lies she tried to tell me to keep me from breaking
But wouldn't explain to me about the money mommy was making

There's too many things for me to list
So I'm going to put this blade deep inside my wrist
It's my only friend these days
It makes all the pain go away
But I want you to know I love you
And don't try to stop me for it seriously maybe to late
Just always remember this date:
May 28, 2005
For it was the day I let stress take my life

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