Cancareless girl

I really do try to care
I do but it doesn't work
I use to be so energetic
I could give so much more than
What I do now
I'm so different now
Things just don't matter anymore
The smallest things
Use to mean so much
Then I stopped caring
It's like a puzzle missing
It's pieces waiting to be put back
Laying on my bed
With all my thoughts just staying there
Doing nothing with them
I don't care
I don't even reach out
Probably cause i don't bother to
But i really don't care
Use to scream, jump , run , laugh
So much more than I do now
Use to enjoy so much more
Guess I'm waiting for
The next big thing
To blow me away
To change me
All my interests decline
All points decreasing
Maybe I'm psychotic
I just kind of sit here
Melting away
Waiting to die off like
Leaves dying off before winter
Maybe I'm a robot
I feel like one
Cold , uncaring, thoughtless
Everything just feels so meaningless
Maybe I need help
But really I don't even care
Just here typing words
When I know I don't care
I guess I'm trying to get a kick
Out of this , maybe seeking
An audience
Feel so lost , confused, misguided
Like I'm in limbo
But I don't show it
Don't feel like dramatizing it
Just another teen poet
Who writes of depression
Because they're lost and confused
Looking for answers
Wondering what's wrong
Thinking that they're crazy
While at the same time
They don't care