Keeping her secret

There was a girl i loved
whom I met long ago
she was always smiling
her sorrow she would never show

I would laugh with her
having fun everyday
but something was always on her mind
what, she would not say

then one morning
she came to school
her eyes were red from crying
she whispered to me that she's been a fool

no longer could she hide
she admitted her darkest fear
that one night she might give up
and die to stop the tears

for months she'd been cutting
then she would cover up the pain
she showed me the scars
explaining how her blood would pour like rain

so that was what haunted her
my dearest closest friend
she had been so tormented
that her life she wished to end

I told her to stay strong
even though I'd begun to cry
I loved her with all my heart
without her i would die

I wish I could've helped her
to make her world right
I wanted to stop her
when she cut herself at night

but I kept her deadly secret
for I felt there was nothing more I could do
if only I had told someone
but I stayed the only one that knew

so when that day came
when I received that call
my friend had committed suicide
I knew I was the one to blame for it all

I had failed her
I'd let her slip away
how could she have left me
my love was not worth the stay

now that she is gone
my world has fallen apart
when she slit her wrist
she drove a dagger through my heart

it seems like a different life
when i remember the first smile we shared
now she's dead and cold
I wish she'd understood how much I truly cared