My Suicide

Living with pain
its crawling under my skin
seeking to get out
to release the horror from with in
my heart is shouting with pain
as i bleed invisible blood
my life is slowly ending
it ends in crusioms flood
ill take a knife
and cut my wrist
and bleed the pain
if you insist
the drops of blood
hit the floor
my heart keeps calling out
"please no more"
i pay no mind
to what my heart shouts
all it does
is lead me to doubt
tears are falling
death is calling
to take me back to hell
except the only problem is
I'm there, you just cant tell
gasping for air
choking on a dream
crying so silently
so no pain has been seen
asking for god
to inflict me with no mercy
to take my life away
if he wont stop it
i will
the nightmare will end today
every bit of sadness
builds up inside my heart
tearing at my soul
ripping me apart
fear of not knowing
if ill ever be OK
i turn to my knife
for all the answers
maybe i can bleed the pain away
calling out for help
but its not worth it
you see me smile
so you assume my life is perfect
but I'm lieing
can't you see
all this laughter isn't me
look into my eyes
so you can see
the gashes in my heart
and why I'm using this knife
to set me free
its not my fault
I'm doing this
you over looked me and didn't read between the lines
ill press the knife up against my skin
it ends here....this is my suicide