Saving Embrace

My life is now the death of me; to wake is to regret.
Those who mean the most to me are those that I upset.
My sanity’s my lantern in the darkness of my mind.
I thought I let it dwindle when In fact I had gone blind.
No matter how much effort I put into those I trust,
If I don't meet their standards then I've left them in the dust.
"I'll never speak again to you! Some friend you are to me."
It's practically unbearable to hear that guarantee.
It's not that hard to give my whole attention to one friend,
But what am I suppose to do when I am met with 10?
It hurts so much to hurt someone, and someone's always hurt
And still they carry on of how I left them in the dirt.
Then I learn the hard way that no matter the degree,
Loving someone doesn’t mean they'll make the same decree.
And when I close my eyes I see the faces of each friend,
And In my mind I hear their screams; they seem to never end.
Suddenly you're standing there and looking through my eyes
And for that very moment all my turmoil subsides.
You wrap your arms around me and I'm met with your embrace
And every troubled glimpse of me is wiped off of my face.
And though you then let go and walk away another time
I just want you to know that that one moment cleared my mind.
The voices disappeared and all my sorrow washed away,
I guess sometimes a hug is all you really need to say.