A day pretending that nothings wrong
A face of a soul that’s long been gone
Smiling until I walk in the door
The smile fades I end up on the floor
Whips and gashes of burning pain
Holding back a scream I can scarcely contain
Gaze at the blood on the belt in his hand
Over and over, till I can no longer stand
Screams ringing in the air
I notice it is my own despair
Don’t tell, no one would care
So the damage and shame I never shared
I Crawl up to my room, lock the door
Knifes and glass all over the floor
Slashing once, twice then over again
Harder this time all over my skin
Lines and slices, not being felt
I wont let him kill me ill do it myself
Look at the smile upon my face
Look at all the pretty pictures I’ve traced
Broken glass and razor blades
Drawing and cutting until my skin fades
The color I’m using is a dark crimson red
I have enough, I won’t run out till I’m dead
My Eyes are blurred the room is fading
I try to speak, but can’t hear what I’m saying
Everything turning black, I hit the ground
Falling forever not making a sound
I awaken, I did not succeed
I will do better the next time I believe
For this was only my first time
My next try I will not stay alive
