Suicide Good bye

Please help me figure out
Why I am here
All I do is cry and pout
I don't let anyone here
No matter what you think
Your not that close to me
As i stand here with a razor at the sink
You will never see
You don't know the pain i feel
It hurts so much inside
I try to stay on even keel
But i think its my time
For my suicide
Good Bye