Lets Just Be friends

We go on just friends, act like our past was never better then our future. but it was, it was happier then what we have now. the days when i whispered your name with a smile. the days when i couldn't stop thinking of you. these days i still think of you. but i think of what we use to have. because we no longer have. once more i have been told to just be a friend. does this make me the best friend. so many girls have said these words to me "lets just be friends". does this make me a good friend, or a terrible boyfriend. i don't know. but I'm starting to think that I'm neither. because if i was a good boyfriend, i would never hear those words. but of pity girls will try not to hurt me. so can i believe them when they say "i don't want to hurt you". i do, i really do, but is it right. i don't know. my feelings are confused and stirred and i am lost and no longer have anywhere to go. i will just be a friend. i will not try to be more then that. i don't seem to be good at it. if no girl will have me. then i will wait. and let my heart hurt more. because i am waiting, and i am always waiting