What Do I Want

What do I want?
I've asked myself
so many times before
a question that really
cannot be answered
so what do I ask for?

maybe I want
to shut the door
on everyone around
maybe I want
to wallow in loneliness
then tear that barrier down

maybe I want
to knot a rope
and hang it on the fan
maybe I want
to run with friends
across the rope-colored sand

what do I want?
I tear my mind apart
trying to get something
I couldn't get from the start

I know I don't need to know what I want
maybe I want to know what I need
am I insane? or do you understand?
maybe I want you to take the lead...