I thought you said you would always be there

I thought you said you'd be there
When Ever I needed you there
But when I need you, you just disappear

You said no matter what
I said I just want to cut

You start to threaten to leave me
Fighting these urges alone

How do you expect me to be there
For you when your all alone

If you just leave my here to rot
and not help me up
when i fall