Pressure

I just cant take the pressure
thats put on me everyday
as much as i try to shake it off
it just wont go away

for them i must be perfect
why cant they see I'm not?
i really cant take much more
now the blade is all I've got

i feel their eyes upon me
they just watch and wait
waiting for me to fall down
waiting for me to make a mistake

i don't know how much more i can take
or how much longer i can hold on
i pretend its all okay
but I'm really not that strong

"You used to have so much going for you,
what happened?" i hear them say
these are the words that repeat in my head
each and everyday

"You were such a good girl,
so smart and well behaved."
i really wish they'd understand
I'm too far gone now to be saved

i wonder what would happen
if they knew how i felt inside
would they try to help me
or deny it and just hide

i just want them to know
they make it so hard for me
i feel trapped and lonely
i just want to be free

free from the expectations
and the hurtful things they say
from from all the pain and hurt
free from the pressure felt each day