My suicide..

** yeah its long..and its not my best..but still..comments/votes..thanks xx**

it was dark and cold
i was alone in my room
crying and holding onto my blade
knowing it would all be over soon

everything was going wrong
the thought of living was too much to take
i couldn't go on anymore
i was sick of being so fake

it was getting late
i knew everyone would be asleep
it was the perfect time to do it
to dig that blade in deep

i couldn't wait any longer
it was time for me to say goodbye
time for me to be free from pain
time for me to fly..

so i took my blade
and dragged it down my arm
knowing that i would be safe now
i would be safe from any harm

the blood began to hit the ground
drop by drop by drop
i started feeling faint
but i didn't want to make it stop

so i just let it all flow out
my feelings..my hate..my pain..
my tears mixed in with my blood
fell down like crimson rain

the end was getting closer
i could see a shining light
not long and i would be so free
happiness it was in sight

mum please don't blame yourself
you did all you could
you didn't want it to come to this
and i never thought it would

dad we were not that close
we didn't always get along
but i honestly did love you
you'll be better off now I'm gone

sister we were pretty close
and i treasure what we had
you know that ill be better off
so please do not be sad

i hoped my friends knew that i loved them
they kept me alive so long
but it was time for me to leave them now
i was no longer strong

the thoughts began to race
all the memories of fifteen years
i remembered all the happy times
and then the crying and the fears

slowly my head hit the floor
i was no longer just dead inside
i was dead in every way..
i had committed suicide..