Dear friend- A letter

Today when the melancholy hours destroyed me, darkness sat waiting on the shelf
As the tears settled in, with waters of pain, I dissolved my anger within myself
Mockingbird singing to taunt my dear dreams, waiting for me to let them go
Sweet subtle hatred invoked with cruelty and shadowed, hoping that someone would know

As the shadow filled noose, tightened its grip, and I lost control of the time and the hours
Saw you walking, longed for a comforting arm, but could not be the one to burn your sweet flowers
So I walked into paintings of masterpiece black, searching for a riddle to cry
Wandering lonely, filled with unfufilled dreams, lay down just longing to die

In a slow slumber, A trace of long ages, slipping into a coma where I'm lost in my mind
Prayers for an escape into fantasy and wonder, where I can repair what was long left behind
Flick through recent pages, a letter still waiting to be sent, is now the right time to give it to you?
Suicide note, with thoughts and shadows of doubt, what more could I say, nothing else to do

So I sit, reading wondering shall I leave this to fate, or do I release feelings inside
Do I drag you down with me, my darling friend, or do I release you with the key of suicide
Tears of sweet wonder and memories of love, of the times when I had you in my arms
Appreciating every second with your smiles and your words, the way you stopped me from self harm

This letter is for you, you know who you are, and how my life was but a dream in my head
Read these words from my soul, and absord my true sentiments, they were from me, as I am, dead

"Dear friend, don't grieve for what has gone, don't cry tears for me either please smile
I was too weak, but darling, carry on, for I will be watching over you, forever in a little while
Remember all the good times, you were my love, my life, I leave you my heart
I'm sorry I could not carry on, that I shattered and broke every minute we were apart

My friend, my love, you gave me life, please carry on with happiness, and love
You are the world to so many, the air that they breathe, don't waste your life as a bloodied dove
Never forget our love, so true, my love inside I promise will never faulter or die
Though my body is gone and my soul perished, Please don't shed any blood, no tears, don't cry

You can live, you can smile, become who you really are, darling, be free
For now I have gone, the chains are unlocked, you have the chance to shine, to be free
Remember me not for the tears, or the bloodstains that covered my bleeding soul
But for the laughs you gave me, the love, and the kisses, the way you took me and made me whole

So goodbye my darling, you can carry on now, and smile for me under the stars
Forget about the hurt and the pain you hold inside, lock the memories under your scars
Remember that life is always worth living, there is hope, you can always be strong
Don't take the losers way out like me love, for you have so much to give and I was so wrong"