Are you happy now?? (tru story..)

I clutch the bottle of gasoline,
Tight in my fist.
I can barely think,
Cause man am I pissed.

My mind so clouded
with fury and rage.
I feel so locked up,
Like an animal in a cage.

How dare she try to control me?
Why can’t she accept who I am?
Am I that horrible?
Well fine!! Now wont you be damned?!?!

mom, you finally get what you want
Didn’t you say you wish I were dead??
Now wont you be sorry
You’ll wish those words were never said.

Remember when you hit me?
And told me to f**k off?
Don’t worry anymore mom.
Looks like I lost

Looking at all my scars
…I guess I am messed up
but that’s ok I guess
no longer will I be such a f**k up.

I slowly pour out the bottle
Liquid drips from my hair
My clothes are soaked in it
But do you think I care?!?!

I pull out a match,
Strike it hard
What now mom?!?!
Am I still a retard?

Will you even care
That I’m gone?
Will it even matter?
The time before I’m forgotten sure wont be long.

Or will I haunt your every thought
Will you regret being who you are?
will you just move on,
Pretending I’m not far?

The match is burning down
Do you even mind?
You’ll never guess what
Behind this door you’ll find.

Faster and faster,
The flame reaches my skin.
It spreads quickly,
And in smoke, I’m engulfed within

The heat is unbearable
I pass out from the pain.
I’m left as just ash,
As I leave this earth in vain

this is a true story about my cousin... she was 14 and she got pissed off at her mom so she poured gasoline all over herself and started herself on fire. she didnt really want to die, she just did it to prove a point...