My Diary

Dear Diary,

Today was a bad day
But that's nothing new
I have the knife in my hand
If they only truly knew.

I made a new scar today
But shh.. I'm only telling you
I hope the secret doesn't get out
Before my life is through.

I always walk alone
The screams nobody hears
Its been hard keeping a secret
For over four years.

Dear Diary,

Today was just as worse
But I'm starting to prepare
I made another cut today
The the pain I can bare.

I wish I could find the strength
To finally end it all
I'd rather lose everything
Than to take another fall.

The worst part of it is
That no one's ever there
I lay there by myself
And know that no one cares.

But every-time I realize
That nothing turns around
The same thing just happens
And again I hit the ground.

Dear Diary,

Today was the day
I could barely stand
Again I take this knife
And place it in my hand.

So as I take this knife
There seems to be no other way
I cannot take this anymore
Not for one more day.

The first scar will be small
Just a little cut
The next one will be bigger
I can feel my life going into a rut.

Dear Diary,

Today is the day
I'm taking my life
I'll end it all
With one quick slice.

They'll find me somewhere
A note in my hand
It will tell it all
But no one will understand.

It will explain the pain
They cause me all my life
Why I decided to do this
And why I picked up the knife.

So as you know
I'm no longer here
I died today
August 1st of this year.