What Happened to Me?

Where did I go?
Who's living this life?
Why can't I escape it
It just isn't right.

Where can I run to?
I can't escape what isn't true.
It's everywhere I turn
Haven't I learned?

Even at my best,
It turns into a big mess
I just want to rest
What's the worst and what's the best?

It seems like I live the bad times
Then watch someone else
live my good times.
I'm trying to grasp my own life..
But my own life's a lie.