When Will I Get The Other Half Back?

I really do wonder..
why do i fall for guys games..
i know its all lies and tricks..
which is actually pretty lame..
i keep telling myself..
this is the one i have been waiting for..
but in the end, Mr right turns into the devil with horns..
so what am i doing wrong..
what do i need to change..
these are the questions i ask myself each and everyday..
i don't know the answers or how to make it right..
I'm so lost and confused on a path where the sun isn't so bright..
i wish somebody could help..
bring me back to the time..
when my life my happy instead of feeling so deprived..
I'm sick and tired of crying and begging God to help..
just so i wont feel alone..
i used to be happy and always a smile on my face..
lately i find me frowning and no one to embrace..
i gotta fake a smile..
so they wont worry..
but really i want someone to hold me..
so i know it will be alright..
each day i awake..
i wonder to myself..
will today be the day i fight this and finally make it through..
I'm taking it day by day..
and praying for the best..
i need to straighten my life up..
and do what i have to do..
i got to leave my past as history..
and work on being new..
I'm tired of letting boys bring me down..
each time i get used..
i want to be strong and live life on my own..
so please girls don't do one thing..
give your hearts away..
cuz once you do, you might not ever have it whole..
believe me i learned the hard way..
and I'm still waiting for mine back

*This is about my ex..he really destroyed me and I'm finding it hard just to wake up anymore..but writing is the only thing that keeps me sane anymore..
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Thanks