Last Apology.

I'm sorry,
Sorry for the pain
Sorry that I disappeared
Sorry that I lied to you,
When I know I'd see tears
I'm sorry I let you believe
Sorry you came this far
Sorry your hopes and dreams
Made you spill your heart out for me
I'm sorry for this heartache
Sorry for these things,
But I'm especially sorry for this apology
What was said that day by him,
Will always be in me
Just wish it was truly meant to be
I always thought that this was real,
But reasons came and seasons changed
The reasons of unhappy endings
Seasons that were filled with memories
Pictures of smiles that won't fade away
Remembering your eyes when I first saw you that day
Your beautiful face
And your shiny hair
The way you walked,
And the way you stared
Always, but hatefully I will come to see
That you were never right for me
I hate you, I do,
But I can't let go
There's something about you
I hate when it shows
I want to kill it, I want to kill you
Get rid of you forever,
But I don't want you to die not knowing how much I love you
It hurts, the pain I feel
The pain I go through
Just to be here
Without a sound
Without a voice
So depressing to have a choice
To live or die,
To understand
To make believe that I imagine
To believe you're sorry
And apologies really matter
What you see here
Will be with you forever,
But I'm sorry this ending isn't what you had in mind
Looking down on me without a word to leave behind
I'm sorry,
Sorry for the pain
Sorry that I disappeared
Sorry that I lied to you,
When I know I'd see tears
I'm sorry I let you believe
Sorry you came this far
Sorry your hopes and dreams
Made you spill your heart out for me
I'm sorry for this heartache
Sorry for these things,
But I'm especially
For this last apology.