Speechless

I don't know what to say
i can't believe what you said
i have a boyfriend now
its not like i think you're dead

its always been just you
you and your boyfriends
i hardly say yes to have one
now that i have our friendship ends?

why are you acting like this
just because i talk to him
this is pissing me off just a little bit
this is what it seems

i hate that you can let them in
talk to them like you do me
i can't even believe you anymore
i don't understand why you can't see

I'm just almost close to happy now
my best friend why are you saying this
it hurts me to know
thinking what you do is a mess

i can't think straight right now
so this poem is everywhere
but after reading yours
I'm now crying in despair

i have tears rolling down my cheek
how often does that occur
not much anymore since i met him
but love him I'm still unsure

this is the first time you've hurt me
the first time you've made me cry
I'm wondering whether this is going to effect our friendship
because there is still the question why

why did you say that
when you know its not true
he said that i should break up with him
if it was really going to hurt you

he cares about me so much more that you know
he cares enough to say goodbye
he even cares for you
yet you say these things that make me cry

you talk to boys on the phone to
in case you haven't known
I've never been jealous of that
of anything that those guys have shown

you know why because i saw you smile
when you talked about them
why don't you want me to be happy
with my new boyfriend?

you may not realize this
but i smile when i talk to him
you and i still talk
but he just calls more often

i hated it that you couldn't tell me to my face
when you said you were hurt when i did that to you
this is where i should call you a hypocrite
but I'm not going to do that its no use

you refuse to listen
then you go cry
I'm not feeling sorry anymore
I'm not going to apologize

i would still choose you over him any day
but I'm not sure you feel the same
i think you would let me go
if the choice was between me and D J

i didn't realize i felt this way
till you pulled my feelings through
i love you more than a sis
but for the first time
i think I'm really mad at you

you've left me almost speechless
again alone in my tracks
I'm ready to leave this world again
and now theres nothing holding me back