I'm Fighting me for the last time..

I'm frozen in time.
I need to look around.
My system is so cold.
This weather won't let down.

I can't see the road I am trying to lead.
What's behind me is all i can see.
I don't know what's going on.
It's like the whole road ahead,
is suddenly gone.

Sometimes I drive with a gun to my head.
Sometimes I walk by myself.
Sometimes I just lay in my bed.
Sometimes I try to get help.

Sometimes no one see's me.
I'm invisible in your dictionary.
sometimes I try to escape my reality,
Sometimes I even scare me.

Sometimes I hold on to whats left.
Of my expired,stupid dreams.
Sometimes I try to let go.
But I can't seem to be me.

Why do I have to be confused?
What happened to my life?
This priviledge is being abused.
Being happy should be my right.

Oh well screw it......
This is my last breakdown.
I don't need this anymore.
I have a reason to be around...

Sometimes I forget that too.
But tonight I'll get it right.
I've been fighting me for too long,
and this is my last fight....