Memories

I feel like i can never be happy
because i am always feeling pain
at night i cut myself,
because you run through my brain

and when i am smiling
i really am crying
because being alone,
feels like I'm dying

and when i look through photos
and memories come flooding back
its then, when i start to realize
its you that i lack

my heart is ripped
torn and broken
all because i was stupid enough
to leave important words unspoken

you do not love me
and probably never will
i, for one, am still living in the past
all because i love you still