Someone Help Me

I’m not sure what to think
I’m not sure what to do
Someone please help me
Tell me what’s true

A mild state of depression
Is only a figment of my mind
It comes when I’m determined
To leave my feelings behind

I think about killing myself
Should I use a gun or knife?
What is the best way
To end my pathetic life?

It’s when I don’t want to feel
I don’t want care
I’m desperate to move on
And I realize life isn’t fair

It comes when I realize
My worse fear has come true
I want to stop it
But there is nothing I can do

It comes when I have no more will
All I want to do is run and hide
And keep all my thoughts and feelings
To no one I confide

It’s when I hurt so badly
My scars run deep
I don’t want anyone to know
I don’t want them thinking I’m a freak

My friends act like they care
But I’m not so sure
I feel like no one sees me
To everyone I’m just a blur

No one understands
“What’s wrong?” they ask
But I’m not even sure myself
I’m just playing the part, wearing the mask