Changes

By day I may seem happy,
But it all changes by night,
Tears begin to fill my eyes,
Which once seemed, oh so bright,
It seems, that with the darkness,
Also comes the pain,
I sit here in the dark,
Crying once again,
I hide behind my laughter,
And my smiles, oh so fake,
I’m not really sure,
How much more I can take,
I pretend that I am happy,
And that everything’s alright,
But you don’t see what happens,
When I am out of site,
I sit here in the comforting,
Surroundings of my room,
I gaze around my sanctuary,
Filled with pain and gloom,
The pain just never ends,
Every night it’s just the same,
I’m just so sick and tired,
Of playing this stupid game,
For so long, Ive tried to fight it,
But I just can’t seem to win,
Everyday it just gets harder,
I just want to give in,
Everyday I pile on the make-up,
And cover up my face,
I must not show my emotion,
My tears I must replace,
I replace them with a smile,
Though it is not true,
I act like I'm ok,
And like I'm going to make it throgh
But I'm not going to make it,
I cant take it any more,
Soon I'm going to end it,
Then Ill be no more,
But for now Ill just pretend,
Like everything’s ok,
Until the final day,
When I give my life away.