Suicide...

*This is not really a poem, but please read it... it would mean alot. I know it is long... but please read it anyway...*

For all those people out there who think suicide is the answer...
Have you ever really stopped to think about the effects it might have on other people's lives? I mean, yeah... it will fix all your problems and take away all your pain, but have you ever thought of the pain it might cause the people around you? Have you actually thought about how they might react and what major effect it might have on them? Everyone feels like nobody cares sometimes, but somewhere out there, there is at least (AT LEAST!) one person who cares, and if you were to end your life, they could miss you so much that it might drive them to ending their life as well, just so they can be reunited with you. You many not know that this person feels so strongly about you and cares about you so much... but they do, so you should never say that nobody cares.
For the first time ever, I actually sat down and considered what effects my suicide might have on the world and a lot of questions came to mind. Who would actually care that I was gone? (I am sure a lot of people think this, but I guess they just did not take it seriously). Another question; who would even realize I was gone? I mean, if I was not online for a month or so, people might get curious... but how many of them would actually try and find out if I am ok? And even my friends from school... how would they find out? I ca not exactly imagine my mum phoning them (or the school or what ever) and telling them that her daughter just committed suicide, I can imagine her crying, and then when she acknowledges that I am gone, she will be rather pissed off and/or disappointed in me because she always believed I would become something great. Then there are the people from the bowl... how would they take it? There are so many people to consider... I do not know if I would be missed or if they would be happy... and I have no way of finding out. Would my death really be that big of a deal? Would people really care? Would they be sad to never hear my voice (or read my words in some cases) again? Or never see me smile? Would they even notice? I guess I will never know...
A human life is so valuable, it is not supposed to just be thrown away... we all have a destiny, but you can not fulfill it if you gave it up, I guess we just have to hold on... there has got to be something better coming tomorrow, but you will never know if you are not alive to experience it. The smiles of today provide us with a better tomorrow. Just got to live each day as if tomorrow does not exist... beause you never know when you will take your final breath.