Last Moment

We sit together on the way to school. Sitting there just as always. You looking at me so lovingly, and I, knowing what fate will come to you at the end of the day. The day has dragged on, feeling longer than ever. But now it's come, and the bell rings 3:10. I jump up and walk out of class. Rushing down the hall to the locker. Then to the front to find you. Knowing I have to do it soon. I don't have to because of a stupid dare, but it's for the better. No matter how hard it is going to be, to do. I can't lead you on like this. I can't let you think I love you like you do me. I still love you, but this is a love like a best friend that you don't want to leave. Not a love like a girlfriend should have. I take your hands and try to explain it to you, in as little time as possible, so it won't drag on. We are walking now, heading home. Trying to let you know I do love you and want to still be friends. I want to have you, but not like that. This is the corner where we say bye. I want to say I love you and I am always here for you. Even though I still am here, you might not accept it. It will be worse tomorrow I think as I'm putting my key into the doors lock. I look back before going in. Realizing that you left, and won't be mine. Did I make a mistake? Should I call you and say April Fool's? Or run after you and kiss you one last time? But I just stand their, looking at the empty corner where we said the final good-byes. I can feel the emptiness in my heart already. I soon recognize it is the place where I kept you. Why does it have to be empty? Can't you still be here for me? I thought you would, but...hey, I guess I thought wrong. Not everything in life happens like planned. Why is this so, from my heart you've been banned? I've loved you this long, but I couldn't take it any more. So now I walk into the house, past that wooden door. Leaving everything right on the porch. All the feelings of leaving you. Of being on my own, all by myself, with out anyone who I know will be there to hug me each and every day. I leave all emotions there, hoping that they will just blow away. But they don't and I have to collect them up again the next day.