Memories

I lie awake staring to the sky,
Watching as life passes by,
Counting the minutes to a new day,
Watching the clock tick away.

I remember the good times and the bad,
I remember the times where I felt so sad.
Playing in the park and never being alone,
Than cutting my wrists when I no one was home.

I think of the bad and some of the good,
Thinking of my broken childhood,
Thinking of dying before the end of year six,
My mind breaking down and my heart playing tricks.

I remember lying awake my eyes full of fear,
I felt alone yet I shed not a single tear.
Going to school with cuts down my arms,
No one really knew that I self harmed.

My friends didn't hear the tears that I cried,
They said they cared but I think that they lied.
They told a teacher who didn't really help,
All she did was my make me blaim myself.

I moved away to out of town,
To a place which made me frown,
The school I went to, no one seemed to care,
It made my heart shatter and tear.

I made some friends who made me alive,
Who didn't leave me alone and blind.
They opened my heart and filled it with love,
These my angels from above,

My life may be good but I still want to say,
That I'm still hurting even today,
Mum and Dad listen to me please,
This isn't like a curable disease.

Love me for who I am and maybe I'll feel well,
And if don't than go to hell,
I needed you, yet you weren't there.
Maybe now you will care.

Now that I'm not blaiming it on myself,
Maybe now you'll finally get me some help.
Mummy and Daddy don't you see,
That I'm not einstein, I'm simply me....

~A poem dedicated dearly to my mum and dad, thanks a bunch!~