I woke up this morning wanting to die
so clueless on what happened, and wondering why
I mean, what the hell happened on that day of demise
hell why did it happen, and why are there tears in my eyes.
I wipe them away hoping my troubles go too
but to my dismay, i only thought more of you
i fell to my knees and started to scream
and asked myself, why were things not as they seem?!
Is my life a lie, am i just a fake
will i ever understand, cause its more than I can take.
Please show me the way, I'm too tired to try
I just wanna lay here, just lay down and die.
because when working with all and trying your best
and it fails in the end, just like all the rest.
it shows you the truth, and what you're ready to find
that ya life sucks period, and you're gonna lose your mind.
you fall on the ground and gasp for breath.
your wiped your tears, and now you're prepared for death.
you start to question life and ask for a meaning.
you want people to see you and give you understanding.
but they turn around, and kick dirt in your face
laugh at your pain, and point at your disgrace.
a shame to your family, a shamed to the world
and it all started back then, when your life began to swirl
when you look at yourself and shake ya head in disbelief
when the day is over with just a sigh of relief.
You try to make sense and think of what went down
but everything you know is fake, just like the echoing sound.
you hear your heart beating and it stops suddenly
now you're laying on the ground, cant talk nor breathe.
am i gonna die, am i free from this pain.
but the day starts over and you're back in the game.
you wanna quit, you tried before.
but realize what is pointless, and you live once more.
you tried to kill yourself and that didn't go right.
you're stuck in this circle once again, and damn near ready to fight.
but they say, fighting solves nothing, so why should I try?
I mean, if I'm doing wrong by fighting, why don't i just die.
you give me no reason, to really try more
I'm just gonna lose, hell lose like before.
maybe I'm all wrong, maybe death is the wrong way
maybe i should try, and make good of today
