Misunderstood pt 1

No one understands
my life lays in there hands
but they rather laugh then listen
they don't see I'm in a dreadful prison
i try to lift myself
but i cant do it i need help
i try to take my troubles off my mind
by telling myself everything is going to be fine
but its hard to keep that lie
for no ones hearing my cry
my best friend left
she was taken by death
i was raped when i was young
AH! no matter how much i scrub i still feel his tongue
the only one who made him go away
was my laugh but he didn't say
he died a year ago
and of this no one knows
so many people Ive met
but only one i wont forget
shes forgotten me
i guess i have to let her be
Ive lost everyone good
everyone who ever understood
i tried to move on
but i need the people that are gone
cant bring them back
thats a fact
so i got nothing to live for
might as well die
cut my veins hit the floor
and write a letter goodbye