I'm scared

I'm scared of what I'm capable,
of doing with this knife,
I'm scared of its blade,
it might just take my life,

I'm scared of all the things i said,
it really wasn't right,
but as i lie here in bed,
i don't actually give a shite,

I'm scared of sleeping on my own,
i don't trust myself,
i just feel so alone,
i really need some help,

these depression pills don't seem to work,
they don't make a difference,
they just make me feel like a jerk,
and I've felt like it ever since,

I'm scared of what I'd do,
with a tub of paracetamol,
i don't really have a clue,
i wish i was as free as an eagle,

I'm scared of this knife,
I'm scared...
I'm scared...
I'm scared of life!

*Michelle*