Why did you?

Why did you make me the way I am,
Lock away my powerful fear of people,
I was strong though I had know sympathy,
I was smart though I had no empathy.

Why did you stop me being the way I was,
Wake me up to a different world,
Lower my resistance that was blocking you,
Please don't deny it, I know it's true.

Why did you take pity on me,
Giving me thoughts I could never understand,
Soften my heart so I would not fight.
Take a calm hold on my jaws so I wouldn't bite?

Why did you let them torture me,
Sometimes joining in but mostly watching,
digging their nails straight through my skin,
kicking pointed boots right at my shin.

Why did you never stop to ask,
Why did I let you torture me till I bled,
The answer is I wanted to die,
Just let me go and hear me cry,

Why did you act like you hated me so much,
When really you loved me and wanted me to stay
Watching me with clever masked face,
Using me at will in your own happy pace.

Why when I went back you were so happy to see,
The ugly face you had fought with too much,
but still clung on the moment you saw me,
Bright smile on your face gentle and happy.

Why did I when I went back,
Become so attached to you,
Something I'll never understand or let you know,
I've found that I'm in love with you.