A game i cant win

You look at me
and see the pain behind my eyes
all the while i say i love you
I'm tryin' to disguise
my love for him
the truth of my sins
how Ive betrayed you
in this game i cant win

I'm so mixed up
engulfed by confusion
all the while its our love
I'm trying to invision
but hes blockin' my sight
i cant see our love
all can see
is him and me

i cant look at your picture
i feel so ashamed
i wanna find an excuse
but i know I'm to blame
i should never have doubted
your love for me was true
now I'm stuck in the middle
i don't know what to do

again now Ive betrayed you
him and you both
i feel like Ive played you two
but i cant help but love both
i wish i could choose
but I'm just so caught up
i cant believe i let this happen
I'm so damn f**ked up

now theres no way to win
someones gonna be hurt
i just don't wanna be responsible
for someone layin' in the dirt
i cant leave you, i love you
but i feel the same about him
now that I'm lookin' at the problem
its really starting ta settle in

now i see the truth
I'm the one who needs to go
though i know you'll both miss me
its for the best i know
for i cant choose between
the two people i love
one my night in shinin' amour
the other my beautiful dove

so ill leave you now
with a crimson kiss
as i drag the blade
across my wrist
my love never fading
ill be with you forever
cause i cant stand the thought
of us not being together

Copyright ©2005 Amanda Hope Indelicato