An Inside Pain

by Rachele   Jul 30, 2005


God, life's hurt me so badly, so many times.
I can't believe that I'm still here breathing.

I don't know how to explain all the pain.
I've lost all touch with reality.

I'm dying inside.
I know I am. I can feel it.

My hearts breaking so slowly that
I can feel every string pull on it.

I'm so afraid of what the future holds.
I can't tell anyone exactly how I feel cause I'm scared
to death to cry.

I'm afraid to be alone with myself.
I don't know how long it will take before that pain
becomes unbearable.

People have hurt me so many times.
It's no wonder I can't trust anyone.

Life's broke me down so many times, but it makes me stronger
cause I'm still here fighting for my life.

They can take everything away from me,
but they can never take away my truth.

The end of the road could be brutal,
but I guess that's just the chance I'm gonna have to take.

The life I've been given doesn't seem as great
as everyone thinks it is.

I'm not really sure what I should do with the knife.
Should I let go of my life, and give into the pain and strife?
Or should I give up, and go get that help
that I so desperately need?

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  • 18 years ago

    by Michelle

    Rachele,

    I love you so much. Not in a bad way though. I mean, as a friend, and in many ways. I love you for who you are. I love each and everyone, but as I said before, I want people to respect me, be honest, love me for who I am, and just accept me, in general. I think everyone, including, you, wants to be loved so deeply. And, I can understand why. You've had a tough life. I don't want anything to happen to you, because finally, I've found I can trust you. I feel as if, since you've been there, I can understand in many ways, what you're going through. I know why you're doing what you do. I don't even have to ask. I know.... I know it's hard... I don't want you to ever give up on life. I think you have a lot more to live for. You're a great poet. Very intelligent. A great person. A great friend. I can see so many qualities within you, that..... I can see from just your writing. I know you are one of those people, like myself, trying to be a perfectionist, feeling guilty--maybe in many ways about life, and you want to "please others, make others happy," then you want to see happiness within yourself. I know you want to feel happy about life and so do I.... I know, it's difficult... I just know. I cannot say through words, how difficult, life can be, though, it's very hard to explain how life is difficult... It just is... It's like no words can explain it... Please don't ever take your life. It's not worth it. You mean much moe than that.... Again, I'm here to listen.

    Hugs,always, lots of love,

    Michelle

  • 18 years ago

    by nobody

    Keep fighing. someone out there cares for you. we all, here do. even if we dont no you. your like another family!
    great poem

  • 18 years ago

    by rachel

    wow sad bt truthful, reli emotional another great poem well dun :) xxxloadsa luv

  • 18 years ago

    by JJ

    Definitely the last question is your answer. Suicide doesn't solve anything. You may be gone but trust me, their is always somebody out there who cares about you, wether you know it or not.

    Stay strong, keep fighting!