My living nightmare

4rm this nightmare i have not yet woken
i live this life with a heart so broken
i walk around this earth with an empty soul
2 break me down is the devils goal
so he waits silently in my room
just waiting 2 meet my doom
as soon as i walk in,he stabs me with a knife so sharp
so quickly in front of my eyes my life falls apart
i feel the blade pierce through my chest
and I'm thinking how much life i have left
but the thought is interrupted by all the pain I'm in
it hurts so much when the blade is within
in the next second i hit the floor
and i yell out "y god?????what 4??????"
so on the floor bleeding i just lay
waiting till my dying day
I'm praying,bleeding,crying
I'm falling,fading,dying
my question is answered by my lord my Christ
and I'm wondering have i been denied
because all my life I've felt alone inside
then in reality i realized i committed suicide
so I'm slowly dying all alone
when all my life that was my fear all along
a few minutes later my parents walk in and my mom screams
i know shes wishing its all a dream
my dad runs 2 the phone 2 call the cops
and all of a sudden i hear something drop
5 hours later i wake up dramatized
and I'm in a room i don't recognize
soon they tell me my mom died of a heart attack
i start 2 scream and i wish i could take it back
because of me my mom is dead
its been a year and i see things inside my head
so go ahead and see what happens when u call me crazy
because ill make sure u get what happened 2 me