Life.... you can call it that me.... i call it hell

I've never seen it before
but now i see it very clearly
every single day
I'm losing the real me

i act and i see things
different the i did before
the way things are going to hell
it hurts down to the core

you act so mean to me
i almost cant take it
every time you see me smiling
its only because i had to fake it

so much is happening in my life
and i don't need you added to it
just try to go easy
and try to understand a little bit

i lost one mom
but in my heart i lost two
now i don't need this crap
coming out of you

the mother that i love
i feel like I'm losing her
how i hide all this behind a mask
I'm not so sure

whenever it rains
it releases my pain
and its the only time i feel complete
or somewhat sane

how i feel right now
my boyfriend doesn't even know
i want to talk to him about it
but i cant even go on the phone

tears that fall from my eyes
are not of sadness but of hatred
one little thing i do wrong you git all frustrated

you have no idea what i go through
each and every day
if only i were able to somehow
give it all away

this is the truth
i ain't telling no lie
the only reason i stay on this earth, is because
of my boyfriend, he keeps me alive

even if the whole day I've been sad
in just a second he could turn it upside down
he's my loving angel
he's the only happiness I've found

you can take my life
you can make me cry my heart out
but you cant take the two people in my life
that i love, and i say that without a doubt!