A cutters life

Why must things go this way
why must they go wrong
my life has been like this
for to very long
no one understands why i hurt so much
they don't agree i inhale
but they don't know anything
they don't know that my life's a living hell
everyone says they care for me
but they are feeding me lies
because if they were telling the truth
why aren't they by my side
everyday i have a fear
my man will let me go
but how will those two thing affect me now
I've seen so many people leave
for now its normal for me
everyday to grieve
at night i wonder
what i have in store for tomorrow
will i be happy with love
or dying with sorrow
and i also wonder if I'll still be
with my man i love with all my heart
or will his heart turn cold just like the rest
and we'll painfully be apart
will i be able to handle it
and manage to not use the knife
or will my head be stuck in that moment
and I'll live a cutters life