Something you'll never know

Behind these eyes is something you'll never know. This smile I put on everyday is just for show.

I keep all my feelings deep down inside. I won't let them show, I won't let them make me cry.

This doesn't feel right, being in this world. Sometimes I feel like my body is here but my mind is somewhere else.

I can't live like this anymore keeping these feelings bottled up inside. I hate the way they make me feel the way they make me cry.

I want a way out of myself and this cruel world. The only way is to die. Put this knife up to my veins let everything I've ever felt, ever cried for, ever saw, flow out with my blood.

I know it's a stupid way out and there's other things I can do. But this seems easier and faster and for me it's what I should do.