Big Mistake

Here I sit once again
In this darkness
No one knows the pain I am in
They can't see behind the smiles
They have no clue
What I am hiding on the inside
If only they knew...
Would they even care?
Doubt they would
They'd probably think its just a phase
They would have never understood
And thats why I am doing this tonight
No need for a good-bye note
Not like they would even care
They probably wouldn't even read what I'd wrote
So I take this knife blade
And drag it across my smooth skin
I am slowly beginning to fade
With each flow of blood that falls from my wrist
This pain is excruciating
So I clench my fist
Everything's becoming dim
My life is slowly crumbling apart
Like a dead rose's stem
My life then show before me
Of all my many memories
Then I realize this wasn't meant to be
I should have never done this
I had friends to be there for
I never once thought of how they'd feel
By now, its too late, I have broken their hearts for sure.